18 Days Post-Op

I am 18 Days Post Op. I spoke with the Nut on Friday and explained my extreme hunger situation and that I could not follow this strict diet {if I could I wouldn't need the band}.  She was very happy and pleased to hear from me and said I could eat if it didn't bother me to do so!!!  I told her I cheated once or twice and she didn't yell at me!!  She was so nice and sweet about it and said that I had the Green Light to eat!!!!!  She had asked me if I had weighed myself and I said yes, that I had lost 14 1/2 lbs so according to her then I am doing something right :-)!!!  NOW its Monday and I couldn't control myself, because I did eat, not anything TOO bad just not Mush!!!  I get on the scale and HOLY COW I have lost another 1 1/2 lbs for a TOTAL of 16lBS LOST ALREADY!!! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEE

Thank you!!

I just wanted to really thank everyone for their great advice and support!  I would be SOOO completely lost and confused and alone without all of you, your help, advice.  I am just so nervous that I wont get this right....I am hoping against all hope that I do.  The one bright spot is that I have lost 14lbs since this process has started.  I think the weekend was just too much , too tough and I decided weekends are no longer my friends.  At least during work I am not as tempted as I am at home.  I have started walking more than I ever did.  People in town that I know are actually surprised to see me walking even too the store because it was something I refused to do!!! LOL...stupid I know but walking just hasn't been my thing since I got my own car and drivers lisence (MANY Years ago).  Before that I would walk for hours and hours to get to where I wanted.  These blogs of mine are going to be mostly jumbled and messy and probably sensless, but I guess that is how I am feeling right now so~~~ We are moving and the kids are excited but have to stay behind for a month for school which is stressful, but if I don't go now the good opportunity I have will be missed and so that is making me crazy too!!  My job is making me crazy...you all have the same issues so I know you understand.  I really don't want to fail at ANY of the things I got going on right now, but there seems to be so many of them that the ball is bound to drop somewhere, so where is that going to be??  I know where...the ball will drop on ME and my goals will get lost already and I could just cry.....it will get better and easier.  Who knows maybe tomorrow will be another Wonderful Day!!!

Today is NOT one of the Wonderful days!!

What a difference two days make :-(  Maybe it is lack of sleep, but I am STARVING!!!!  Mush isn't doing me well today, maybe its because it is my first weekend cause at work I was fine.  I took a piece of my daughters cookie and chewed and chewed and chewed but the Gods did not strike me dead and the Earth did not swallow me whole!!!  I had my protien shake~I modified it a little cause man it was nasty!!!  I put 1/2 the powder in and used Greek Yogurt and a bannana it wasn't so bad, but not filling :-(.......if I could control my hunger I wouldn't have wanted the band.


I feel like I am going to fail already.  How did you do it?  Those of you who had to go weeks without ANY mush..........how???

WOW....Life is GOOD Today!!

Ok, so my daughter broke my laptop.....(bad day had a smoke eek)  ANYWAY so it is hard to get on the PC at home, and I was SOOO Busy, I cant even explain it all LOL.  1 week....1 week post op and I feel WONDERFUL.  I have already lost 11 lbs!!  I know it wont ALWAYS be this great but I am enjoying it today!!
I am doing ok the mushy stuff (yogurt, cottage cheese, beans)  Sometimes the port hurts though, it feels like it wants to escape LOL...